Wednesday, January 25, 2006:
just when i thought i was all hyped up about going, i read another person's blog about the fun-ess of jc life. grrr. i was psychoing myself into thinking that i'll be alright and stress-free from the jc environment.. but then the play part keeps coming up. aiyah. i dunno if i want to go or stay. ): ahh well. i'm going where God's taking me. He's greater than my greatest fear! so i guess i'll be okay there! and andrea said i could always go bunk in with her.. and there's ernest too, who said he could arrange something for me. yah. i'll be having loads of fun there!
so i'll be leaving in like, less than 24 hrs. nervous and scared. happy and glad.. so many mixed feelings. and i'm really gonna miss everything here. everyone. from brmc to evangel, from mg to ac, work people.. ahhh. God throws you such great challenges. and i feel so small. and i dont want to get out of this comfort zone which i've been living in for 16 yrs of my life.. sigh. i want so much to say no, and not follow the path the Lord has set out for me. sigh.. but anyway, its sooner or later. i just hope i can make the adjustments quick enough! yeah.
oh well. (: positiveness. always better. yeah. its hot ang moh boys.. here i come! >.<
a shout of praise.
9:43 PM
